Short getaway.

Went port dickson for a short trip with the CISA members past two days. Overall, it was a super fun trip. I was one of the leisure of this trip, to be honest, I was super stress as this is the first time to set games and others for trip, I'm actually the first time to be a leisure. Hmmm, as I am a person that pursuit for perfection, I am super dissatisfied with what I have done. I'm super upset actually, I felt like crying on that day seriously. Everything doesn't went well as I think, everything just such a mess. I knew it came out with ton of comments, there are good and bad comments. Somehow I don't know those who think the games were fun were just comforting me or not. However, thank you for all the cooperation and thanks for making the trip to be fun. I learnt sort of things from preparing the trip to making the trip happen. I'm sorry for making the trip not that fun enough and not perfect. I'm so sorry for everything that is not good. I felt so guilty bringing them the wrong way to our villa, sorry :( Yet, thank you all for the considerations :) I really appreciated. I will take notes of the imperfections of this trip and try my best to not letting them to happen again in the other event if there is still chance. However, it was awesome, it worth spending time with them, crazy time with the crazy girls. The very first time I never sleep for a night, that feeling was great but the day after, the feeling KILLS meeeeee /_\ But it's alright cause it worth :)

The group photo ; 

The girls 

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Sorry here comes some little vent and sorry for spreading some bad mood.

除了生气，难过我不知道我现在还有什么感觉。 感觉上什么知觉都没有了，事情发生了我愣了，脑袋空白了，我在想我还能不能相信我身边的每个人? 我不是普通地害怕。我不知所措，我不知道可以向谁说出口，真的不知道。我只想一个懂理的人让我诉说真的，但是好像没有，也许是我被伤得傻去了吧。以前美好的一切 真的可以在一秒之内被毁灭。 世上最可怕的人是心机重的人，而世上最可怕的事情是被背叛。 说实话，你变得好可怕好可怕，你不再是以前的你，以前你说过的好像不存在了。以前，我觉得 人是会变的，至今 我始终觉得人依然是会变的。哭过了，是真的没事了吗?心里还是留着抹不去的伤痕。 也许你不能理解这种痛，我现在的痛 就如你想象你身旁最重要/最要好的人背叛你的痛。那感觉真的很可怕。 为什么你要一次又一次地让你自己在我心里的分数越减越低? 我害怕因为你变得好可怕。这压抑不住的心情在找不到人诉说的情况下 只好在这了。难过但还需要保持微笑，保持正常是件很辛苦的事。

"I hate getting flashbacks from things I don't want to remember."