Thoughts.

Morning people. Just finish reading some articles online and I have so many thoughts in this sunny Wednesday morning. My semester break is coming to the end and a brand new semester is going to starts in a few days. What I actually did in this freaking one month long semester break is sleep, play, eat. I sleep at the late night this whole month, can't even fall asleep easily as before. I wonder why am I keep on thinking this and that in the late night every time. Until now, I actually can't cope with how I did in my last semester. How many effort I put into my studies last semester? What I actually did with my studies last semester? Did I really work hard for my examinations? These questions keep on staying in my mind. To be honest, I didn't really put much effort, I didn't really work hard as I wanted to. Yea, laziness kills people. Sigh. I was super regret since I ended my finals one month ago but what for to regret? That's what I did, I should be responsible with what I did. Therefore, I have no right to be sad if I get bad results even fail. I really need to work harder and harder for the coming semester. Those articles I read just now give me so much motivation. Being an university student, independent is a must. Yea, it's okay to be alone as it's hard to find a person that have same mind/ thoughts with you. Even a friend that was having same mind with you before will change too. So yea being in university it's suppose to be independent. Honestly, I'm not an independent girl. When I do everything I need friend to accompany me. I would feel uncomfortable when I walk alone as I feel that people around will look at me in like 'this girl is lonely', 'this girl has no friend', etc. This was how I feel before but now I'm okay to walk alone :) Heh. I did very emphasize with how others look at me before, but now it's okay cause we do not live for others (: It's your own life, others can give you advises but you are the one who make decisions :) 

"If you really want to do something, you will find a way;

If you don't, you will find excuses"